Friday, July 27, 2012

Feeling Down


It's not too often that I write something personal on this blog. It's always been my intention to share the good, bad, and ugly but in all honesty it scares me to be so honest and vulnerable. At this moment though I am feeling down and need to share what's on my heart.

For several months now I have been searching for a full or part time nanny job that I can bring Chloe with, with absolutely no luck until just recently. I was contacted by a family seeking a full time nanny for their newborn son starting in September after the Mom goes back to work. It seemed like it would be the perfect fit for us and I could even bring Chloe with. We talked on the phone last Sunday and then on Wednesday I received an email from the Mom saying they would love to meet Chloe and I in person to discuss the position further. I was supposed to meet with them yesterday evening but never got an email actually confirming that we for sure were going to meet for an interview.

Then yesterday afternoon I finally received an email from her stating that they decided to hire someone else for the position and if it doesn't work out they will keep me in mind. It's hard for me to not feel like a failure, like I let Mike and Chloe down. A part of me really thought I had this job and I let myself get way to excited about it. I'm really trying to stay positive about this whole thing but I'm starting to feel hopeless about finding a job.

I know I need to keep looking and applying and have faith that God has the right job for me. And on a good note I do have an interview lined up in the next couple of days so if you could please send prayers and good thoughts my way I would greatly appreciate it!

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  1. good luck!! I so know the anxiety of searching for a job and how hard it is to just wait and be patient. I hope the interview this weeks goes really well:)

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    1. Thank you so much Kierrin! I know all this stress and anxiety sucks! I cant wait to have a a job one day!

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  2. Sending prayers your way! I know exactly how you feel. I am trying so hard to get a night time job, so I can still stay home with Amy. I keep getting real close to getting one and then for one reason or another it doesn't work out. I feel down and like I am failing my family as well. I keep reminding my self that God will light the way that it right for us. I hope that you get this job and everything works out for yall. Good luck!

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    1. Thank you so much Samantha for your prayers and encouraging words! good luck to you too in your search for a night time job, I know God has the right one for you and your family!

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  3. So sorry about your struggles with employment! People are always looking for nannies so here's hoping -- I wonder if any teachers/professors will be hiring in the next month as they get ready to go back to school. Fingers crossed for you!

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    1. Thank you Courtney! The Mom from the position I was hoping to get is actually a high school teacher. I have seen quite a few job posting for after school nannies as well but it's difficult to get recognized when so many other people are applying for the same job. Hopefully my interview will go well and I will have a job soon though!

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  4. Thinking about you today, and I hope you find something perfect for you and Chloe soon. I'm sure something amazing will come along, but until then stay strong, and know that it'll all work out eventually. Even if the waiting part is hard.

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    1. Thank you so much Stephanie for the encouraging words, I know you are right something will come along soon that will work out perfectly for us!

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  5. it makes me sad to see that you're sad :( i will pray for you and you know what they say.. god has three answers to a prayer: YES, WAIT, or I HAVE A BETTER PLAN FOR YOU

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    1. You are very right Tracy! Thank you so much for your prayers, I really appreciate it!

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  6. Hey Jennifer,
    Hang in there amazing mama. I will have you on my heart until the right thing does work out for you and Chloe. It's so nice that when it does work out, you two will be together! When it was just Otto, we actually wanted a nanny who would bring her child(ren) to our house because we thought it would be nice socialization for him. So there is someone out there who is just waiting to find you!

    I don't know if this is welcome or maybe too forward. But if you wanted, I am happy to take a look at your resume and cover letter. I'm something of a resume wizard and have redone almost everyone I know's. AND they all always get more callbacks and jobs almost right away after. I don't know why I'm so good at resumes, maybe I'm a sociopath, haha! But anyways, for reals, if you wanted I'm happy to do that for you. Sending love, virtual hugs, and lots of happy thoughts your way today. xoxo

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    1. Thank you so much Lindsay for your sweet, encouraging words! I appreciate it so much! and wow that is really sweet of you to offer I would love that actually. I know my resume could really use some work! You are too kind!

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