It's not too often that I write something personal on this blog. It's always been my intention to share the good, bad, and ugly but in all honesty it scares me to be so honest and vulnerable. At this moment though I am feeling down and need to share what's on my heart.
For several months now I have been searching for a full or part time nanny job that I can bring Chloe with, with absolutely no luck until just recently. I was contacted by a family seeking a full time nanny for their newborn son starting in September after the Mom goes back to work. It seemed like it would be the perfect fit for us and I could even bring Chloe with. We talked on the phone last Sunday and then on Wednesday I received an email from the Mom saying they would love to meet Chloe and I in person to discuss the position further. I was supposed to meet with them yesterday evening but never got an email actually confirming that we for sure were going to meet for an interview.
Then yesterday afternoon I finally received an email from her stating that they decided to hire someone else for the position and if it doesn't work out they will keep me in mind. It's hard for me to not feel like a failure, like I let Mike and Chloe down. A part of me really thought I had this job and I let myself get way to excited about it. I'm really trying to stay positive about this whole thing but I'm starting to feel hopeless about finding a job.
I know I need to keep looking and applying and have faith that God has the right job for me. And on a good note I do have an interview lined up in the next couple of days so if you could please send prayers and good thoughts my way I would greatly appreciate it!