Still So Much To Learn

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Next month Chloe will be turning one, as we inch closer and closer to that momentousness milestone its all I can think about these days. I guess I am just coming to the realization that my once tiny, sleepy newborn baby is blossoming into a toddler. I see it more and more in her everyday, the way she looks at me with a devilish grin right before touching something she's not supposed to touch, or the way she would much rather crawl and walk then be held in my arms. It all feels so sudden though, as if I just blinked my eyes and there she now stands all grown up and I'm left scratching my head thinking how the heck did that happen. How did my baby grow up so quickly?

Its finally hitting me now how much more I still have to learn about Chloe, about myself, about what kind of Mother I want to be. I can only imagine how different raising a toddler is compared to raising an infant. I'm excited for this new adventure in Motherhood but also completely terrified. I cant wait to discover more of who Chloe is, to see her personality develop and mature. My heart melts when I think of all the new firsts she will have, like the first time she tells Mike and I she loves us, but then there is that part of me that is terrified of the obstacles we will face, terrified of failing as a Mother.

 Parenthood is a funny thing, once you feel you have everything mastered and perfected your baby grows and changes and has a whole new set of needs that must be met. I just want to be the best Mother I can be for Chloe, I want her to her always know how much I love her and nothing she could ever do will ever change that.

I know I have so much to learn about raising a toddler but I'm up for the challenge and I honestly cant wait to discover more about my sweet Chloe.